Holding Thumbs for my Friends

Sorry I have been so scarce, but work is keeping me on my toes.  Actually at the moment, it seems as though my feet aren’t actually touching the ground.

So here I sit on a Saturday morning with no news of my own, but I want to tell you about my hopes for my friends.

First up there is L – who will be starting her IVF cycle when AF arrives.  L it seems a life time ago you said you would be cycling in March/April, but here we are.  My friend I am hoping with all my hope that this is it for you.  Sending you huge hugs and love.

Then there is N with her twin babies who have made it to almost 33 weeks now.  She had a terrible scare about six weeks ago and has been on bed rest.  So glad your little ones have staid put.  Here’s to two perfect healthy babies!

Then there are all the ladies in the 2ww.  I’m holding thumbs, crossing fingers, and if I knew where to find a rabbits foot, a lucky star or a four leaf clover, I would be holding them all for you guys.

I know this is going to sound crazy to everyone who has ever been through a 2ww, but there’s little I wouldn’t give right now to have a 2ww and have the hope that goes along with it.  Maybe it’s only because it’s not my bum being pricked full of holes four times a week, but it really feels as though Hopelessly and I are in limbo on the whole baby making front.  It’s very weird.  I often find myself wondering what constitutes TTC?

  • We went off contraception in 2004, but we weren’t TTC, I mean we knew we couldn’t conceive.
  • We started TRYING in Jan 2009, but without sperm are you actually trying?
  • We have been getting (proper) treatment for over six months, but with still no results, can it really be considered that we’re trying

Sometimes I really appreciate how lucky we are to not have to have timed sex, to have no pressure to have to DO IT!  I’m grateful for not wondering constantly if ‘just maybe’ this will be the month.  Lucky not to be spending money on ovulation tests, pregnancy tests only to get negative results.  But I read a blog today where she gave thanks for hope ad it made me realise what I guess we are missing… HOPE.

Not 100% true I guess because at the end of the day I still have HOPE that ll these hormones going into my poor husbands bum will get us to the point of actually TRYING!  I just want to get on with it now.


About MommyAtLast

Finally a Mommy to our Medical Miracle IVF Boy / Girl Twins who were born in November 2011. We overcame azoospermia using hormone therapy for my hubby to conceive our precious Hope Babes on our 4th IVF.
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9 Responses to Holding Thumbs for my Friends

  1. Bratty says:

    Hi Hopefull…I know the feeling about being in the 2WW…it seemed like a never reaching dream. I am so grateful at being given this chance.

    Your 2WW will come…trust me….and I will right there cheering you on.

  2. Lesley says:

    Thanks so much J! Your hope and love at this time are so appreciated. Friends like you makes this all little easier. I hope your time to have a shot at success will soon be here. It isn’t much fun when you feel that time is just passing by.

  3. Bratty says:

    PS..Mommy In Waiting…I am missing having you around….

  4. skrambled says:

    I understand what you are saying about the TWW. It really is dreadful, but I always feel special because I have my embryos on board.

    But heres hoping!!!

  5. NotTheMama says:

    Clicked over from the virtual lushary… Totally know what you mean about the 2WW and does-this-constitute-as-trying! Hope can be a slippery thing to hold on to with azzospermia. Hang in there!

  6. Stefanie says:

    the 2ww is the worst time of your life. It feels like forever.

    Hope everything works out well. Hang in there!

  7. Heather says:

    Hope is alive…always.


    ICLW #29

  8. Kristin says:

    Wishing N and L the best of luck.

    Hoping you guys do get to really try for a baby.

    Good luck.

    ~ICLW #31

  9. christina says:

    Holding thumbs…I’ve never heard that saying before! But how sweet of you to remember all of your buddies. Wishing you all the best, too!

    Happy ICLW!

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