I’m sitting here in bed, looking out at the balcony where Hopelessly is doing his favourite thing… taking photographs. Now what you might ask is he taking photos of?
Actually it is the end of a long weekend in South Africa and today is back to work day. But here we are up the West Coast staying in a little flat with a view of the sea crashing against the rocks with fishermen on little boats between the rocks trying to make a living. It is sublime.
Actually today is a work day for me, but I am training in a little town up here today – only around lunch time – and we have managed to make a little break of it. Work will be paying for our petrol and the accommodation last night, so we made a whole weekend of it, camping, doing a 4×4 trail and really enjoying the beauty of this awesome country we live in and the amazing lives we get to live in it. A weekend like this never fails to remind me why we decided to come back to South Africa after being gone for so long.
Also this weekend seems like a real breakthrough. Last year was a right off for us. We got caught up in TTC in January and the rest of the year seems to have been a complete blur of terrible emotions and disappointments and other than a short trip to Kruger which was also a TTC nightmare we just never got out and did our favourite things. And this year will be different – at least in terms of making sure we are still enjoying our lives together. This is our second weekend away in just one month and we have a whole week away planned starting on Saturday. Again I have to deliver some training in George and so work is putting us up in a 4star hotel for four nights and then we will be staying on for another three nights to just enjoy the garden route. We still haven’t actually booked the place we will go after the training, but I have this dream of a little cottage with peace and quiet and bird song. So here’s hoping.
I think I forgot last year how blissfully happily married I am and how a child will enhance that, but that we are happy without the child. And have been happy for going on 14 years together (nearly our 12th anniversary). And for most of those years we accepted we couldn’t have kids and simply got on with making our lives together great. In some respects it’s such a pity that this overwhelming desire to be a mother suddenly overtook me. It feels as though it has taken some of the shine off the happiness of our lives together. But we will be focussing now on having some fun together again and enjoying the lives we do have, rather than mourning what we don’t. I guess all this rest and relaxation has meant today is a good day!