Welcome, welcome, welcome to this happy place.
Last month’s ICLW saw us sitting waiting for test day – AGAIN. Not the test day where you find our whether you have a bun in the oven, but the kind where you check whether the cupboard is bare or you have the necessary ingredients to bake the bun. You can read our story so far here.
Well since then we received the bestest news ever and heard those precious words “We found motile sperm“. So our TTC journey has entered a new phase altogether. Although a friend gave me pause when she asked whether we have been back to double check that the results were right and not a mix up in the lab!
For the first couple of weeks after the results we were flying so high on cloud nine that I had completely convinced myself that we would definitely fall pregnant naturally – you know the old fashioned way. I was willing to accept that it may not be 100% natural and we may have to go the IUI route, but IVF was a scary place I couldn’t venture even in my mind. Now reality is starting to settle in and we are starting to come to terms with probably doing IVF in the next couple of months. I’m not completely writing off hope, but DefTTC (the DH) keeps saying that hoping for more than one miracle is greedy and we should just be pleased with our miracle.
We are in the land of figuring out IVF costs and the logistics and trying to figure out dates, fitting in the SA re-test, a doctor’s appointment to get the professionals qualified opinion and my cycle and figure out when this could all happen. I seem to have a complete one track mind. I mean I thought it was bad before but that was all if’s, but’s and maybe’s this seems so real.