So I just endured my first 2ww which was a strange one anyway. My cycles are not exactly predictable and can be anything from 21 to 36 days, not too bad, but makes timing the Baby Dance a little difficult. I thought I had it down pat and had totally figured out the EWCM, but last month I got it twice a week apart and AFs arrival wasn’t timed to either occurrence. Anyway the net result was that this cycle I got the EWCM on day 7, but still spent another week watching out for more and thinking I might not yet have ovulated. But there AF was on day 22, so my 2ww was only really a 1ww.
Anyhoo, I keep a little calendar where I track AF, EWCM and SA days and when I entered AF’s arrival it occurred to me that we could be starting our IVF in three weeks (all dependant on my silly cycle!)
Today it is two weeks to the next SA, tomorrow we are down to just two weeks to our FS appointment where we get a POA and in around three weeks we could be starting IVF! OMG!
Did you see what happened there… a few posts back I was all in the land of IUI if at all possible and now I have come to terms with the fact that it’s almost certainly going to be IVF with ICSI.
Financially DefTTC had a great billing month in May and looks like he will have another one this month, so we will have enough money for IVF 1 & probably 2 because I simply can’t bear the thought of not being able to go again fairly quickly if this doesn’t work.
It feels like we waited so long just to get to the starting line and suddenly this could all be starting really soon. I am nervous and excited and terrified. But I am doing much better than I was when I think about all the implications of IVF. So hang on – this rollercoaster is reaching the top of the slow climb and the exciting ride is about to begin.