We spent so long with zero sperm and probably not really believing we would ever find ourselves in this place where we can do IVF with our own genetics. All along this journey while, yes, I have definitely had plenty of thoughts about the what next stage, I have avoided doing too much research about the next phase. I didn’t want to get ahead of myself. I didn’t want to ‘know’ what ‘should’ happen next in case things didn’t pan out that way.
Now I’m not saying I’ve been a complete ignoramus, I’ve done some homework, read the forum and have surrounded myself with IF vets. By listening to them and watching what they have been through I have learnt tonnes. But not in the gory detailed sort of way that you want to know EVERYTHING when it’s actually going to be you.
So now we are in a new land and rather than do any work today I have been reading all about how they actually do the ICSI, how they hold the egg, insert the sperm, how they know if fertilisation has actually taken place. All the details about the technique they use for embryo transfer and where they put the little blast in the uterus and how it goes about implanting. WOW nature is amazing, but in our case the doctors are astounding. It is really like science fiction to read all about this.
No doubt this is a sign of things to come, the googling I will be doing looking for implantation signs and early pregnancy symptoms even though I know there is no such thing, still gotta have all the facts.
No AF hasn’t showed, but I am totally relaxed about this. The plan was a nice to have, but I am NOT going to stress myself over things before we even get started. And as it turns out I now have a meeting Monday morning, so that wouldn’t have been perfect anymore. What will be will be.
Tonight is date night, off to see Robin Hood and DefTTC is hoping that Russell Crowe looks amazing to put me in the mood so he gets some action tonight – LOL!