Oh I had so braced myself to hear that none of our eggs had fertilised. And it was good news. Three (3) eggs are showing signs of fertilisation. Actually I have heard there were six eggs, but one was no good – not sure what that means? And so they only ICSI’d five and of those 3 are there.
This was the biggest hurdle in my head, I know we aren’t there yet, but this stage for me was always going to be the big one.
L thank you for the call, it really helped me to realise my crazy assed thoughts were ‘normal’.
I said to DefTTC yesterday how I felt barren since they had taken the eggs out. Up until yesterday’s retrieval I felt like I was in control (yes I know I’m not really, but leave me to my illusions). After all I was nurturing those eggs, which could become our maybe-baby, they were inside me. And all of a sudden they had taken them away from me. And everything was out of my hands. I had to trust the most important thing that will happen in our lives to a stranger named Maureen with kind eyes. I know this may sound ridiculous, but I want to rush to the clinic and keep my embies company, make sure they are being looked after properly and wanted to watch the whole ICSI process to make sure they are doing things properly. Not that I would know what doing it properly looks like.
So I have to phone again tomorrow for an update, but we are working towards transfer on Thursday – day 3. Come on little guys grow and get strong!