So sorry to everyone who now has another terrible song repeating in their head. What is it with me that when I start blogging what comes to mind are just those songs you wish you had never heard and then get so stuck in your head!
So we are comfortably into another cycle. No not one with any treatment, but shock horror – a natural one! How bizarre! After all these years it feels like we may be having our first ever natural shot at getting pregnant. I know we have had sperm for a while now, but until three weeks ago we had so few they wouldn’t even give us a count. Now we have 1million little swimmers and while I know that is not really enough for natural conception… well – miracles happen and you just never know.
And so we are having some fun this month. I do not take my temperature and chart my cycles and my cycles are slightly hard to guess (anything from 22 to 36 days) so we are simply doing the old Baby Dance every couple of days. My husband has a smile from ear to ear – he thinks Christmas came early!
But it is bizarre. After such a disastrous cycle last month it seems strange and peculiar to think anything could possibly go our way without medication and medical intervention. And yet I have hope. It is a weird kind of hope. Normally for me hope comes with expectation. You know you hope you will lose 1kg on the scale this month, but you expect to only loose ½ kg because you weren’t as good as you should have been. I don’t have any expectation of it working, but still there is hope.
I seem to have spent so much of my time in the last two years hanging out with people going through ART that I find it almost impossible to believe that babies actually do come from s&x anyway, but yet curiously here we are having a go at this strange concept and seeing if it can work for us too.
In other news I have been so desperately seeking anyone who fell pregnant on their third IVF. On the Fertilicare Forum there is a poll asking those pregnant or who have had a baby on which cycle they fell pregnant and no one, I repeat NO ONE who has completed the poll has fallen pregnant on their third IVF. Until this morning I read in someone’s signature of a lady who had success on IVF#3. And so it does happen, our next cycle doesn’t have to be the one to fill the gap before we can have success on IVF#4. I know I am slightly crazy, but I also know you guys understand.
And then finally we have tickets to see U2 in Cape Town in February. Both DefTTC and my step mom both thought we should get seats rather than standing room tickets as I could be pregnant then. OMW – Imagine – Me – Pregnant. I can taste it!!!