I hope I never have to bury my child. I think it must be every parent’s worst nightmare. I don’t think anything gets worse than having to face the death of your child. It is so upside down to the nature of things.
Along this road of infertility I have met women who have had chemical pregnancies, those who have had miscarriages (at various stages of their pregnancies) and those who got to hold their child for just a few moments and then had to say good bye. No parent should ever have to go through that. This is where I just cannot get over the injustice of the word, that good people should have to endure that pain.
My in-laws lost their first baby. She was born prem and dies only a few days old. On the very rare occasion when my MIL has opened up to me about this, I can see that over 40 years later it haunts her. It seems to be a sadness that doesn’t go away, a burden you carry forever. A heartbreak that leaves a scar that never fades.