Oh Wow this is the post where I get to go on and on and make everyone else jealous of what an amazing husband I have. This is the one isn’t it??? Actually I don’t need anyone’s permission to rave about my hubby. He has certainly made my life worth living for – every day!
Back in the beginning when we were still just friends. What’s with that term anyway ‘just friends’? I mean aren’t friends one of the most important things we can have in our lives? Anyway back in the beginning I was a messed up teenager, full of self-doubts and the typical teenage angst and he was there. Somehow this annoying man/boy drove me to distraction, challenged me, questioned me and made me really take a new look at myself. He helped me to see myself from an outsider’s perspective. He taught me to value myself and not tolerate being treated badly in my relationships. And somewhere along this road the annoying boy, became my flat-mate, best friend and protector.
Until the day he finally admitted that he wasn’t having very ‘brotherly’ thoughts about me and he finally kissed me.
Last week at the therapists, she asked me how my marriage was coping with IF. I had to say that while the days aren’t as bright as they once were, I don’t ever doubt our relationship. We are doing fine, better than fine, great. We are stronger together and still love each other and remember to show each other how much we love each other. I just wish I could be the happier, smilier, more chilled, easier going person I was a few years back.
But no matter how dark the days are, I wake up each morning and he smiles at me, I get a kiss goodbye, I have to send ‘smoochy kissy’ noises from the front door (I once forgot and had to turn around and come back home to send kisses – well and collect my coffee I forgot that morning too). Every afternoon, he smiles when I walk in the door, looks at me with the that look of absolute love, and at night he has to kiss me in the dark before we go to sleep. These are the things that are worth getting out of bed for in the morning and worth living for every day.
Honey thank you so much for giving my life purpose.