It felt a bit freaky last night thinking that I will be starting my injections again this morning. It felt so soon, and of course it is so soon. And as with the first day of every cycle I had a mild case of the shakes again before actually stabbing myself with that first needle. Of course part of that could be to do with using the GonalF pen for the first time and it being new and a break from the usual routine. A friend mentioned how the needle doesn’t go in quite as easily as the other needles and the nurse made a big deal about the number of clicks and it all added up to something new to stress about. But actually that needle is so teeny tiny that I really didn’t feel it at all and it is totally easy and painless. And so this whole stimming thing is easy.
I actually think that stimming again so soon means that I am well and truly in the swing of things and this doesn’t feel like quite the big deal previous cycles have felt. In fact this cycle feels a little like business as usual. That feeling certainly removes an element of the stress and anxiety around a cycle.
I am feeling a lot less excited than last time, but still hopeful and positive and figure that we are just playing the odds here. We had good embies on the last cycle, a great lining and a good attitude so everything was lined up just right, now it is simply a case of the odds falling in our favour.