It’s totally pathetic that I haven’t updated you guys in so long on how things are going, it is funny I have drafted so many posts in my head, but finding the time and energy has proven harder than anticipated. So here I sit in Jo’burg on a business trip and I find myself with some time to spare for a decent update. Grab yourself a smoothy (if you are cycling, pregnant or breastfeeding) or a coffee or stiff drink, kick back, relax and get the last three weeks update all in one hit (unless I run out of energy).
So the last post I was in a blissed out place. I actually had a run of FIVE whole days where I didn’t vomit, but it didn’t last, I still vomit most days, but I am definitely better, no nausea, just the vomiting in the morning – I guess morning sickness in the truest sense of the word, it’s what I thought all morning sickness was (in my total and utter ignorance). Yup I am practically 18 weeks and I STILL Have morning sickness and what does my doctor say about this… He shrugs his shoulders and says “Twins”. I was really struggling with severely low energy, way worse than anything I experienced in the first trimester, and what did my doctor say… He shrugged his shoulders and said “Twins”. In fact he did recommend a natural energy tonic, caffeine free (Vita-thion) which I have been taking, but I self diagnosed with some help from my MIL a case of anaemia and have put myself on some iron supplements and am definitely feeling much more on top of the world. I can feel weight in my uterus, not sore, but definite pressure, a little disconcerting. And the doc… shrugged and said “Twins”. And I have been getting breathless very easily, sometimes just walking form the couch to the kitchen to get a drink can have me panting and puffing. And what does my doctor say… He shrugged and said “Twins”. In addition I often feel my heart beat right in my throat, it feels as though I am having palpitations or that my heart will simply climb out my chest. And what did my doctor say… No, this time he shugged and said “Good!”. Whaaaaat?!? He went on to explain that when you are pregnant with a single baby your blood volume goes up between 40-50%, but with twins it’s between 80-100% and your heart has to work soooo much harder, so the fact that I can feel it beating means it is doing it’s work.
I guess what all these symptoms add up to is that this pregnancy is proving to be much harder than I anticipated. I mean I knew intellectually that a twin pregnancy is harder than a singleton, but the reality has been a little bit of a shock to my system. I did not expect all of this sooooo early. In fact my doctor told me to stop thinking of myself as 16 weeks pregnant (that’s where I was when I saw him) and to double that to being 32 weeks along! And then all of a sudden the symptoms seem to be happening at the right time. Only problem is that means I will be pregnant (in this head space way) for between 72 and 80 weeks!
On the up side, I am still feeling blissed out even if not the most healthy. I am so loving having a belly. It is absolutely awesome to have this roundness that stops me bending over and gets in the way and protrudes. It is the most beautiful reminder of the miracle inside. I am totally in love with my body (possibly for the first time in my whole life). I LOVE being pregnant, I love the feeling of living this dream come true. I am sometimes totally overwhelmed by the life growing inside. The emotions are immense and so varied, but the excitement is really building and the fear is starting to ease. It is starting to feel like this is actually happening to us.
Chris is already proving what an amazing Dad he is going to be. Not that I ever doubted it for a second. His protectiveness has trebled and the way he looks at me with such wonder (especially if he is checking out my preggie belly) and love completely melts my heart. It feels (if this was ever possible) as though we have become sooo much closer. So much more together, so in tune.
He has been pushing me to stop procrastinating and start making some progress with the getting together of the big things for the kids. So Thursday we emptied the nursery of the spare room furniture moved it into the old office and Chris is hopefully going to paint the nursery this weekend while I am out of town (work dependant). I have finally ordered the pram, did I tell you about my pram??? Oh I will save it for when it gets here from the UK and I can include photos. And I think we have made a decision on the cots and compactum, in fact Chris has threatened to order them this weekend just to stop me changing my mind AGAIN. The car seats are proving to be a complete nightmare. We finally made a decision on Sunday, placed our order only to be told yesterday that those car seats have been discontinued!!! But again I think we are making progress and I have people from almost all the baby shops in Cape Town phoning me, emailing me and trying to help me make up my mind. In fact it is getting embarrassing that no matter which baby shop I walk into they greet me and ask how the twins are doing… oops, guess I am proving to be the customer from hell (but did we ever doubt it would be so?)
And the twins I hear you ask
They are doing brilliantly. Well they were the last time we saw them. I really wish I was totally loaded so I could just buy my own scanning machine, I think I would make it a 3D and 4D machine just to ensure the very best quality pictures. Two weeks ago, they were growing beautifully and on track. In fact our little girl was measuring a week ahead. It was so cute to see them going at it in there, it really did look as though they were having a bit of a kickboxing match, legs going ten to the dozen and arms flailing. In fact I fear a little for our son that he may be bullied by his ‘big’ sister. Just adorable. I could happily have laid on that bed for hours watching them. I haven’t listened to them on the Doppler for a whole week (just not had much time) and now I am in total withdrawal and am thinking of making up some excuse to pop into a clinic here in Jo’burg for a scan so I can check up on them. I won’t I am fairly sure I can wait to Monday to be back home with the Doppler. As for movement, well other than that first very clear movement three weeks ago, not very much. There are days I can feel a definite movement as in a weird queasy feeling of my tummy turning over and I do often imagine (or maybe feel) pushes here and there, but it’s not distinct enough for my liking yet. I simply
cannot wait to feel definite kicks, and even more than that I can’t wait for Chris to be able to feel that too.
Okay there is still more to say in me, but it will wait for another day.