I have had a couple of messages from people telling me what a bad blogger I have become and the truth is that I have so many blog posts wondering around in my head and most of all the one that shouts loudest is the one about being a Mommy Blogger. Do I even want to be a Mommy Blogger? Am I cut out to write endlessly about being a mommy and the colour of poo or the cries in the night or the fevers or the angst of leaving them at home when I leave for work in the morning.
I love reading about other Mom’s battle with returning to work, battle with breastfeeding, challenge of how to develop their children. I like reading about their kids hitting awesome milestones and all of those posts make me feel normal because I am not alone going through these things. And so I wonder about writing about these things in case other people are interested too.
While I was on maternity leave my blog took a back seat because I would rather either spend the time with my babes or rest and so the blog was quiet, but now I am back at work. So I thought I would get straight back into blogging. But only working part-time has meant that when I am at work I want to hurry up and get the job done so I can rush home to my precious babes and so the blogging hasn’t happened.
In addition my blog has always been a place for me to express my emotions and there are in real life people reading my blog who I don’t want to share my emotions with, people who were NOT invited to read this but found their way here and so that has also made it more difficult for my blog to be the place it once was. That clouds the issue more.
But if I am honest there is still a pull back here, especially when times are tough and emotions run high and I need to write things down in order to put them straight in my head. And so I doubt I will totally stop blogging, but don’t anticipate that I will blog often.
I guess in the same way I became a mommy I have transformed into a Mommy blogger whether I want to or not, if I blog I am now blogging as a mommy. My whole world and focus has changed and so I guess I am back, but watch this space to see how it all turns out.