Strange Dreams

I had the oddest dream on Saturday night.  One of those that really stays with you afterwards.

I dreamt I was pregnant.  In the dream I recon I was about 3-4 months pregnant.  And I was sitting contemplating our miracle on the way and kept thinking, but how did this happen.  Chris has no sperm, how did I get pregnant?  And then the realisation dawned on me, I wasn’t pregnant at all.

And in my dream I cried and cried at the loss of the pregnancy that never was.

Oddly when I woke up I wasn’t sad at all.

I guess my subconscious is trying to make peace with the fact that I will never be pregnant again.

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About MommyAtLast

Finally a Mommy to our Medical Miracle IVF Boy / Girl Twins who were born in November 2011. We overcame azoospermia using hormone therapy for my hubby to conceive our precious Hope Babes on our 4th IVF.
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3 Responses to Strange Dreams

  1. Melinda says:

    It is hard letting go of that “never be pregnant again”…

  2. Sam says:

    I know a few twin mom’s who feel this way. Cos you have this insta family with one pregnancy, a few of my twin mom friends have said they “mourn” the fact that they’ll not experience pregnancy again…

    would you and Chris not contemplate a single embryo transfer at all? Don’t you have frosties?

    xxx

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