It has been six months since my last post. At first it was just another of those usual breaks, where life gets too hectic and you can’t fit it in. Then it was all those thoughts that go around and around about why I write and who I write for and how much of my kids lives I should share. And somehow along the way it became a bit of a decision that this blog had run its course.
Then I stopped tweeting too, it was just consuming too much of my attention, and I took the conscious decision to focus more on my family than my phone.
I have cut right back on the blogs that I follow and have even fallen out of practice with the commenting.
And some of this has been so good for me. With it I feel like my confidence as a Mom has grown, or maybe that was going to happen anyway the longer I kept being a Mom? I trust my instincts more rather than turning to the twitter-verse to help me decide if the kids need a doctor or whether we should ride it out. I am more present, more in the moment of living experiences, not constantly thinking about how I will phrase it when I write about it. I have taken up reading (books) again, it seems that Twitter and Blogs and Forums can deprive you of any time for a good de-stressing absorbing story. I have been much more focused on my work.
But I miss blogging. I miss the support of people who were choosing to read because they had walked a similar path, were busy walking a similar path or who related to something in my experience or in my writing style. I miss Twitter and specifically some of the awesome people I got to ‘know’. I miss the sometimes thought provoking insights into other peoples lives or experiences or though processes. I miss the thrill of a good comment.
And very often I think that by not blogging I am missing the opportunity to capture the little details of our lives. The gorgeous things my kids say and do. The special moments shared with my husband. I ponder taking the blog private so I can capture my kids stories without compromising their privacy. I ponder taking my blog private so I can capture how awesome I think my kids are without offending anyone else or being perceived as “that” mother.
Is anyone still out there or have you given up on me?