Holding Thumbs for my Friends

Sorry I have been so scarce, but work is keeping me on my toes.  Actually at the moment, it seems as though my feet aren’t actually touching the ground.

So here I sit on a Saturday morning with no news of my own, but I want to tell you about my hopes for my friends.

First up there is L – who will be starting her IVF cycle when AF arrives.  L it seems a life time ago you said you would be cycling in March/April, but here we are.  My friend I am hoping with all my hope that this is it for you.  Sending you huge hugs and love.

Then there is N with her twin babies who have made it to almost 33 weeks now.  She had a terrible scare about six weeks ago and has been on bed rest.  So glad your little ones have staid put.  Here’s to two perfect healthy babies!

Then there are all the ladies in the 2ww.  I’m holding thumbs, crossing fingers, and if I knew where to find a rabbits foot, a lucky star or a four leaf clover, I would be holding them all for you guys.

I know this is going to sound crazy to everyone who has ever been through a 2ww, but there’s little I wouldn’t give right now to have a 2ww and have the hope that goes along with it.  Maybe it’s only because it’s not my bum being pricked full of holes four times a week, but it really feels as though Hopelessly and I are in limbo on the whole baby making front.  It’s very weird.  I often find myself wondering what constitutes TTC?

• We went off contraception in 2004, but we weren’t TTC, I mean we knew we couldn’t conceive.
• We started TRYING in Jan 2009, but without sperm are you actually trying?
• We have been getting (proper) treatment for over six months, but with still no results, can it really be considered that we’re trying

Sometimes I really appreciate how lucky we are to not have to have timed sex, to have no pressure to have to DO IT!  I’m grateful for not wondering constantly if ‘just maybe’ this will be the month.  Lucky not to be spending money on ovulation tests, pregnancy tests only to get negative results.  But I read a blog today where she gave thanks for hope ad it made me realise what I guess we are missing… HOPE.

Not 100% true I guess because at the end of the day I still have HOPE that ll these hormones going into my poor husbands bum will get us to the point of actually TRYING!  I just want to get on with it now.